The question I keep asking myself lately is “So what am I doing?”
I keep asking myself “So when are you going back to work?”
When somebody else asks me that question I am quick to answer “Not yet,” in a way that makes it clear that no further questioning is wanted.
But I cannot fob myself off quite that easy.
I am enjoying blogging at the moment and I enjoy learning about the possible ways in which you can make an income from blogging, but I don’t think this blog is quite cut out for that. I like my little corner of the world, but am unsure if there is anything unique enough about it to make money from it, and also I quite like being able to write about whatever I want, or not write for a few days without it affecting my bank balance. At the moment at least, blogging for me is an outlet and a source of connection with other people, especially on days when I may not have much chance for adult conversation.
I have a few ideas for different niche blogs I could pursue, but again, are these ideas as good as I think they are?
I have thought about trying to find some freelance editing, writing, proofreading work, and building that into a business. I mean after all, it is what i’m trained for and I do enjoy it. But I get overwhelmed with the details, tax issues, finding clients.
I have thought of the possibility of returning to study, perhaps getting into education, sharing my love of words with the next generation through teaching English.
I have thought about my love of typography and the possibility of doing some kind of design course, I’m sure I would enjoy the learning, but will I be good enough for it to take me anywhere?
I have thought of returning to the old constant, retail, just to add a little extra to our family’s income.
I have thought about this upside down and inside out.
I have thought about all the time I am wasting not being present with my kids while I worry about this.
And it hits me.
I’m 30 years old and I still haven’t decided what I want to be when I grow up.
Still I guess, it’s nice to have options.
I know some people feel they have no choice when it comes to working.
Me? I want to follow my dreams, the big ones and the small ones too.
If it doesn’t work out, I won’t have that lingering ‘What if?’
Which path I will take I am really not sure.
I know I just need to pick one and start walking.
Are you happy with the path you are on? What would you pursue if you knew for sure it would work out?