This morning I stepped outside earlier than usual to retrieve something accidentally left out all night. The light was so beautiful.
I wanted to stay out there, maybe I should’ve stayed out there.
Instead I came back in with the retrieved item.
The weather was getting warmer.
Things seemed to be moving in the right direction.
But suddenly it is cold again.
I have not really been looking after myself lately.
I make decisions, plans,
but I never quite get there.
I need to stop with the excuses. I know this.
But my usual reserve of strength,
I’m using it for something else.
I don’t know if I have enough for it,
And for me.